WHY?

Why does all the "bad"things always happen to me? I want something so badly, and i dont get it. I pray for things to get better, but it doesnt. Why? Why does the Lord not answer my prayers!? Its been +-4 years now, praying and wishing, and hoping things would go back to the way they will. Im beginning to lose all faith. and i shouldnt. but what more can i do. what more must i do. am i not asking and believing to much? WHAT? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG> WHY AM I BEING PUNISHED LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!! I WISH I COULD JUST DIE.......