KIM GRAY! ♥

I was wondering where I would find an elegant dress for my 21st coming up, till a friend of mine indroduced me to this competition on the KIM GRAY blog. This is just the giveaway I need to win to make my birthday the most memorable one!

JUST LOOK AT THE PRIZE!!!

* R6000 towards a designer Rosenwerth wedding gown or couture garment
*Clarins Facial, Clarins Make-Over (Make-up) and Clarins products to the value of R2000 courtesy of Clarins and Uitsig Spa. The winner will go for a skin analysis, Clarins Facial and make over. The recommended products worth R2000.00 will then be ordered for the winner.
* Sterling Silver Blue Topaz Ring, Sterling Silver Amethyst Ring, Sterling Silver Gilded Knot Ring and a sterling silver heart pendant and chain from Free Range Jewels.
* Any Tiffany & Co Sunglasses to the value of R2500 from Sunglass Hut
* A Lindt Hamper to the value of R1000
* 1 x Flesh coloured Elle Macpherson Initmates bottom
* 12 Bottles of Simonsig Kaapse Vonkel Brut Rose
* 1 x pair of designer J. Maskrey Melissa Shoes valued at R3750 (Style and colour subject to availability)


What are you waiting for? Go and enter now!

this is what it has come too...

So again I try to tell you how i feel, my feelings for you gets stronger each time, stupid of me, i know. but i can't help it. Life is like this. Love it like this. the world revloves not around us but around the many planets, stars, well, the orbit really. again i have the opportunity to tell you.. is it too late, or not? Do you feel the same, or not. i guess i will never know... and thats "okay" with me... coz i cant handle rejection, and i have a feeling that what ima get...

WHY?

Why does all the "bad"things always happen to me? I want something so badly, and i dont get it. I pray for things to get better, but it doesnt. Why? Why does the Lord not answer my prayers!? Its been +-4 years now, praying and wishing, and hoping things would go back to the way they will. Im beginning to lose all faith. and i shouldnt. but what more can i do. what more must i do. am i not asking and believing to much? WHAT? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG> WHY AM I BEING PUNISHED LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!! I WISH I COULD JUST DIE.......

how i miss you

Today i thought about you. for the first time since April. It was sad, i was sad. remembering how you walked down the stairs at Dulcé Cafe the first time you came to fetch me at work. Your smile still sits with me, the pony you gave me. I remember why you gave it to me as well. it might be in the cupboard at this moment, so Eden doesnt play with it, but i long to cuddle with it again. but im afraid. i might miss you. i might want you back. i know its over. its been over since before you left me that warm day on the 23 November. I cried for you, 12 hours non-stop. then i got over it. i think about you sometimes. but only because i wonder how you are. i avoid all contact or conversation relating to you. i miss your smile, i miss laying next to you, i miss holding your hand, i miss massaging you. but do i want and miss you back? no. i just miss having you around.