Dear Gran,
It was hard to only see you laying in your coffin after not remembering your face for more than 10 years. No matter how hard i tried to keep my tears from falling, they fell anyway. I never knew, in all this time, you'd be taken away before I reconnected with you. There are so many things I wanted to share with you. So many laughs I wanted to laugh with you. So many stories... And now they are fading, fading, gone. All I have no is a picture in a frame, and a memory of how peaceful you looked when we said goodbye. It's hard knowing i'll never hear you speak, laugh, cough, all those little things you used to do. It's all hidden in a little compartment in my memory labelled "Ouma". The view of the mountain from your bed, the warmth of your room, even now that you not there, you'll never be forgotten.

Thank you for what you meant for everyone. Thank you that I could reconnect with the rest of my family. Thank you for bringing us all together. Seems i cannot part from them, they are already a great part of my life. And i never want to lose them again.

I love you Ouma. Forever missed, forever loved.

Can't believe you gone. Rest In Peace

Good bye

There comes a time in ones life when one has to do the unthinkingable. Saying goodbye to someone close to you, someone you loved, even someone you never saw in 10+ years. But just the thought of never speaking to that person again, never seeing them smile, laugh, never touching their hand again. It's scary. And sad. And we all a bit emotional because this person touched our hearts. Be it a parent, a sibling, a friend or an acquintance. Just the thought of never speaking, or calling that person again. Whether you knew sooner or later they cannot keep fighting the disease they have, whether it was an accident that happened so fast, no one knew it was going to end like this. Nothing prepares one for death. NOTHING.

It goes without saying that one should not be afraid of death. it's not death we afraid of. It's how death will be approching us. God knows how, where and when. Don't question Him. Be glad for the good, bad, happy and sad times you had together. And remember that God is calling all His children back home. Where we belong.

Cry, be angry. Get totally quiet when you remember that person is no longer with you. But remember. You will meet with them again. Soon.

:-)